So yesterday marks the 2 years anniversary since Pri and I landed in Sydney and although it should be seen as a major milestone, I can't help but look back at it all with a ton of sadness.
Pri and I moved to Sydney a few months after we got married in Toronto with all the best intensions at heart. It was part opportunity, part excitement and part escape for both of us. We had come off of a whirlwind year of wedding planning where our (and our families) relationships were put through the ringer… which is typical of most indian weddings! We were both mentally exhausted with Toronto and looking for a place to start fresh and start our lives together.
Sydney was that solution.
In what should have been an amazing two years for both of us, opportunity has not treated me so kindly. Although I have had the chance to develop in many ways (running, career change), I often feel empty and cold when I think of Sydney.
I look at Pri, who is absolutely thriving in this environment. He has overcome adversity and found a job that he loves and been promoted relatively quickly. He is enjoying a life with little/no commitments where we can just be and most importantly (for him) the weather is warm almost all year round.
In contrast, I am out of work yet again. I haven't been able to make friends, I miss my family to no end, I miss our community, my skin has gone haywire and I have realized I don't particular like warm weather. I have become an introvert in a place that has made me feel empty and alone on countless occasions.
Missing family aside, my biggest personal letdown is my career or lack there of. I made this ambitious change into events which I know is my calling but I have not been able to find stability in roles that allow me to develop into that career forward female I always thought I would be.
Through high school and uni, I was always that progressive female that took on every opportunity to develop my skills and leadership potential. I graduated and landed a prestigious graduate program at GE where I had two years of further leadership development and finance work experience.
We got engaged and my priorities drastically changed from me to we.
In truth, I don't regret moving here but I do often wonder when it is going to be my time again to shine. When my career and my personal development will come first, be at the same level… or if maybe taking the passenger seat on this roller coaster ride is how my life is mean't to play out.
At the end of the day, it may be my pessimistic attitude that is attracting the negative experiences or it may be my lack of internal happiness but I hope the next 2 years will be kinder to me as we try to sort out what is next.
Pri and I moved to Sydney a few months after we got married in Toronto with all the best intensions at heart. It was part opportunity, part excitement and part escape for both of us. We had come off of a whirlwind year of wedding planning where our (and our families) relationships were put through the ringer… which is typical of most indian weddings! We were both mentally exhausted with Toronto and looking for a place to start fresh and start our lives together.
Sydney was that solution.
In what should have been an amazing two years for both of us, opportunity has not treated me so kindly. Although I have had the chance to develop in many ways (running, career change), I often feel empty and cold when I think of Sydney.
I look at Pri, who is absolutely thriving in this environment. He has overcome adversity and found a job that he loves and been promoted relatively quickly. He is enjoying a life with little/no commitments where we can just be and most importantly (for him) the weather is warm almost all year round.
In contrast, I am out of work yet again. I haven't been able to make friends, I miss my family to no end, I miss our community, my skin has gone haywire and I have realized I don't particular like warm weather. I have become an introvert in a place that has made me feel empty and alone on countless occasions.
Missing family aside, my biggest personal letdown is my career or lack there of. I made this ambitious change into events which I know is my calling but I have not been able to find stability in roles that allow me to develop into that career forward female I always thought I would be.
Through high school and uni, I was always that progressive female that took on every opportunity to develop my skills and leadership potential. I graduated and landed a prestigious graduate program at GE where I had two years of further leadership development and finance work experience.
We got engaged and my priorities drastically changed from me to we.
In truth, I don't regret moving here but I do often wonder when it is going to be my time again to shine. When my career and my personal development will come first, be at the same level… or if maybe taking the passenger seat on this roller coaster ride is how my life is mean't to play out.
At the end of the day, it may be my pessimistic attitude that is attracting the negative experiences or it may be my lack of internal happiness but I hope the next 2 years will be kinder to me as we try to sort out what is next.
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